Getting your house in order

As I was doing my morning read through all my favorite blogs, I came across this line and it hit me like a ton of bricks.


Would you let anyone set up their home in your building, knowing that it wasn't completely sturdy or even able to provide adequate shelter?


I have recently been wrestling with the person I am now and the "girl I used to be". Somehow I thought that simply aging would make me better and wiser, but sadly I am not a cheese or wine. I'm coming to the realization that the choices I have made of late have made my house a little understurdy. All those happy occupants who have come to trust that their space in my building is safe, are probably starting to notice that the paint is peeling. I've made a few minor repairs, and repainted some things, but there is no denying that it is the infrastucture that needs attention. Whether I point the finger at weight gain, depression, loss, isolation, not feeling successful, or whatever else, the bottom line is that there is a problem. In the past I have relied on friends and loved ones to help keep the walls from falling down. But, aging has at least taught me how incredibly unfair that is. This question brought that behavior back to light for me, and I'm hoping that I can start to rebuild again.

I've always been a spiritual person. I know that sounds like a woo-woo cop-out, but it is so true. I believe that once you are conscious that a change needs to happen, you can do something about it. You can meditate, pray, and try to evolve, move forward. You can make sure that the relationships you are in make you better. You can open your eyes to the lessons that people have to offer you. Step by wobbly step, you can begin to love your space again, and rebuild that house. Make it sturdy, so it can draw even more love into it.